Message 2 to Gen Z who have a Disability

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Yesterday morning I was driving my car when I was picking up something I could discern people coming out with scarcasm saying "I've got a family to support", and every now and then I keep picking up people saying I lost my job.

My mother and father had 5 children and before she became unwell she had quite a few jobs but never manage to stay in her job very long I never knew why?, sometimes I had to wonder if my mother was encountering Racism at work, she never spoke about it.

But when she became unwell and tried to look for work I can remember her coming home with a Typewriter and she was teaching herself to type and she told me she wanted to become a secretary, but she was never able to overcome her illness and was in and out of hospital. Until one day I stood in my bedroom and prayed "I want to go into a psychiatric ward to see what my mother went through and to deliver her". I heard the Holy Spirit speak to my heart and say "you will go through the fire of testing" but I knew everything was going to be alright.

I even remember at one point in our early Childhood my sister told me that my mothers 5 children faced going into care (I was too young to remember), but my Father saved us. If it wasn't for my Father all 5 siblings would have gone into care and what would have become of us.

That prayer did not come to pass until some 5 years later when i was 28 I had a breakdown. I left work one afternoon and felt depresssed living at home, stripped myself naked and layed on the floor for 30 days without no food and burnt all my clothes and went into severe depression. My dad called the Doctors and I was taken to the hospital and the only clothes i had was 2 dresses.

I damaged my equilbrium and have a chemical imbalance in the brain. When i left hospital I was sectioned another 2 times and was eventually rehoused. My mother funnily enough stopped going into hospitlal frequently, but the devil (with a small d came after me instead).

My mother never made it to be a secretary, but I prayed and told the Lord "I will carry the torch for my mother and run with that baton in my hand and to make me the best Administrator secretary there is".

i went back to College 6 times, 3 times to study Administration, and I always thought of doing a degree in Administration but I never did?. and then I went back to Collge to study Accounting.

But the journey to get to where I am now took me 35 years I set up my business at 54 years of age. The Holy Spirit had to develop Character in me because If I had started earlier I would not have been ready.

When I set up my Business I thought about my mother and my prayer and realise I had succeeded and did something which help to liberate many people like myself who have the same disability.